Afternoon Pages

“Dear Vincent”

I think even beginning this project I was a little apprehensive. I want my work to be amazing, I want what people to see is what I saw while I was writing it. But at the same time I know it is art so how I interpret it is not how the next person will. I don’t want to seem foolish in how I am writing. That my work is too childish for the audience, the class, that is reading it. I know it was hard having a pieces that really weren’t appreciated until after your time and I feel as though this is the place I am leading myself down. What I see in my work will not be recognized the way I hope it will. Like anything pertaining to art there is always that risk, and I am worried that my risk won’t pay off. My goal is to start with just getting words on paper and hope I pull things from this work that I enjoy enough to keep and form the rest of my work around it. I think where I am at is just experimenting still. Especially because this is a genre I have never written in before I am scared it won’t come across as the same genre I am trying to mimic. I am also worried about getting my beliefs throughout the whole paper. I know how I want them to appear at the end but I am worried about using them to “guide” the chooser through the correct path, the path that will show what my beliefs will do to improve the educational system. I think overall I am just worried about the grade I know I will be getting at the end of this. Everything comes with a price, and getting a low score on this because I didn’t meet the means of the project through interpretation scares me the most. I just want my work to come out how I see my work.